Ghosts in The Attic

 I’m sitting here wiping away tears trying to find something to feel positive about for fear that my stress will make everything worse. You see, I’m avoiding getting my bloodwork done and seeing my doctors. Ever since I was fired by a company that doesn’t even deserve a name, I lost my health insurance right as I had been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. Yes, they knew that as well.

Even though I had paid through the nose for health insurance for those 7 years, I had it. Now I have nothing. The glorious state of Florida says that I do not qualify for Medicaid because I ‘make’ too much money (is the job in the room with us?) They classified me as ‘medically needy’ and told me I would need to pay a monthly copay of over 2000$ before they would cover any costs. Good to know if I’m hospitalized. 

Are we GREAT yet????

I am losing a lot of hair. I feel so tired, my skin is dry, my brain is not functioning. I’m so depressed. My thyroid medicine is not working and I was diagnosed with hashimotos right before I was fired. I need to go get my blood work done and go back and see my specialists doctors.

But with what fucking money? Ron Desantis, can you tell me how an unemployed student should pay 300 for labs and another so for specialist visits? And if I’m given medication, how should I pay for that? You should have an answer since you think I have so much imaginary money!

Seeing my hair fall out, my face get fatter, slowly becoming someone I don’t recognize in the mirror is making me feel really unlovable. I don’t want to look at myself anymore. that’s what I’m putting off.

Thanks America. You’re a shithole country filled with fake patriots who don’t even pretend to care about others anymore.